Thoughts

Flower

2008-11-21T05:34:00.000-08:00

Jungle jungle phool khila hian pata chala hian. i can feel the freshness and the lift which comes with a feeling so close. i close my eyes and can feel the petals coming together to bring out the flower. i can feel them coming together and can also sense the layers they are building. i whisper to them. and whisper like it never loses my thought. the thoughts go flowing in the petals and into the core where they just lie and cross their knees like a child in a mothers womb. waiting to come out and meet the receptive.

Imitation

2008-11-20T01:44:00.000-08:00

I want to be a Joker. Ever since the Dark Knight came, i got obsessed with the character. I thought jokers are jokers, they make everyone laugh, imitate people and bring out a balance in people. But the Joker in Batman was too different, he never brings smile to anyone. while everyone (not everyone, but I do) want to imitate him, and yes he brings balance.
A balance in thought. When you stop thinking about future about past, and live in present, not worried about the grief, the pain, the relations, the feelings. then i think you might be closer to Buddha. You just got Nirvana. and that what Joker is all about. a complete empty Frame, where thought comes for a second - complete his motive and everything back to normal. no remorse, no joy. Just plain Joker Smile.

God and Me

2007-06-14T10:39:00.000-07:00

The rain today, brought with her, the sweet smell of earth, the cool breeze and a pleasant weather.
she brought a lot of comfort and smile on our faces.
the monsoon is on the way, climate here was predicted few days back and we waited patiently in the scorching heat of Delhi. I think met department is doing a good job these days.
I know of no Brahman, who might have done a ritual or worshiped vayu dev, to give us this pleasant day.
Vayu Dev ? yes Vayu dev, god of winds !! who in our old vedic literature, also in old testament, was solely responsible for the rains.
According to Hindu mythology {Rig Veda}, there were three gods who helped them in living.
they were, Surya, Vayu and Agni. they were treated as gods because human could not decipher their existence, how come Surya is in air ? why does he come in the morning and leave at night ? but they could figure out the effect Surya has on their living, he helped them cultivate food, gave them light which was essential for living and the same way other gods helped them.
Over time the human race became mature enough to understand the intricacies of Mother Nature and it could explain the phenomena of the Sun, Wind and Fire
The three gods became science, how can a god be scientifically explained.
no one can explain god, because he is god.
It was the testing time for all the Hindus and above all Brahmans, who offer rituals and hymns for the god. the business was suffering.
A proposal was made and all the three gods were acquired and dethroned by new set of gods, namely Brahma, Vishnu and Mahesh.
A whole set of changeover took place, new management came into force, new set of rules were written off, there were more recruitments.
whatever cannot be explained, was passed on to this management to look into.
But again, technology and science never cease to evolve, we keep finding logical reasoning to fiction.

The most complex, the unresolved entity is human today. The desires and the emotions.
and its time now the gods need to be replaced again.
the new set of gods, desire, joy and sadness are ready for the revolution.
or is it me who is god, so says the Rig Veda, god lies in every human !!

Then came me, where god resides.

Dance with me

2007-05-26T21:58:00.000-07:00

The pen refuse to smile,
Mind is walking still,
Faces cry at me,
Hands are on my vision,
Noises make merry,
Isolation Dance with me.

Coffin

2007-02-09T11:20:00.000-08:00

I need a coffin where i can stay,
No door banging i want to see,
nor the pane whistling i want to hear.
the lights on the lamp, makes me blind,
the dust on the knowledge, makes me loon.
A thoughtless dream is what i need,
i dont have anyone whom i can pray,
the soul in me needs a break,
I need a coffin where i can stay.

Prediction

2006-12-01T09:28:00.000-08:00

Living in present, forget it,
it's too much of a bore,
predicting something in future and waiting it to happen, might interest you,
No,
then trying to make it happen might interest,
No,
everybody plans out, have goals and achieve them.
then what ?
dont predict, something which can be achievable,
ever predicted about the emotion flux ?
i predict,
i will be in a emotional flux,
come january,
it would be hard for me to live up,
to much hurt and pain,
can i avoid it ?
no,
why ?
'cuz i want it,
will i let it happen,
no, will make it worse,
why ?
emotional pain is the worst pain,
and i wud love to make it happen,
will love to seee myself trembling with pain,
strugling with emotions,
is it so ?
not really,
then what ?
would really enjoy to overcome that,
why this,
I am bored.

Negitive

2006-11-30T07:13:00.000-08:00

I am negitive, i am dark,
i have a negitive circle or negitive vibes coming out of me,
these vibes are radiating @ speed, no one can measure.
please if you can hold them for me.. they are radiating and are not stopping,
they are taking all my reserve out of my body,
i am sulking... i am diminishing...
please help me...no don't do that,
let me sulk... i am converging to a point,
no i am getting into a cocoon,
some one had tied me down in silk,
i cant break free.
i dont want to,
my thoughts have turned into silk, and are holding me.
there is no choice,
i have come to an end,
end of my fate.
nahi there is chance,
i dont want to be here,
i want to be free.
Ah! i feel something coming into me,
it's positive,
positive vibes,
yes i can be free,
i will be free,
i have energy,
i am breaking all the silk,
i am growing,
wow.. look at me,
how young i am now,
i want to live,
life is so beutiful,
i love you,
i love everyone,
i am big now,
i am full of energy,
i can do anything,
circle is gone now,
positive vibes are coming in,
I am reflecting.
i am positive.

Inactive

2006-11-02T09:55:00.000-08:00

Today i am inactive, I am not able to think, blank.. is what i am..
i am nobody, i hate myself,
i hate everyone,
i dont like you, nor your face,
i am alone, let me stay like that...
i am regaining my thoughts,
dont disturb me,
let me stay this way,
what if i jump,
i stay at 12th floor,
what if i die,
i might die young,
but my thoughts will never die,
and they never die,
they will be present allover,
condensed into the thin air,
forming a faint energy partition in air,
and people call it spirit...
it is but all the energy i spent on thinking..

Brain

2006-10-25T10:45:00.000-07:00

We have five senses that help us to hear, see, smell, taste and feel touch.
The brain tries to process all this information in different ways, but stores the result in one form ( ? ), which is accessible by all the senses.
Now lets see what all can this stupid brain do..!!
1> it controls
2> it can store information, (don't know how it stores)
3> it compares stuff
4> it deduces &
5> it thinks

It controls, yes everyone knows, controls our organs, our actions, reactions, our senses.
It stores, everyone knows. but how does it store ?
It stores information and then it compares with the new information received with the stored information, based upon which our body reacts.
It Deduces or natural reasoning, yes i think (?) it does do that.
Think... ?

Now if we see more into this, we realize, 3,4,5 all three depend more or less on 2,
yes unless we have some stored information, we cannot compare, deduce or even think..!!

now how do we store the information? We receive data through the five senses as input to our system(body) is always through these five senses,
if we look deeply, then we also realize that it is only hear and sight which provide us with the unique data, other senses just translate the information into one of the
easy to understand information, which can be visual information or sound information.

Energy conservation

2006-10-19T05:06:00.000-07:00

Conservation of energy i.e. energy is constant; we can only transform it into different forms, but cannot create or destroy it.
We live on food; we eat, digest and then absorb it, in the form of glucose into our cells.
Ever thought of, where all places it goes after getting absorbed in the cells, may be we need it for all our metabolic activities, like exercise, sleeping and working.
What about thought. We think and the byproduct is a thought, but what does it take to form a thought? Few million of cells working around the clock, where the smallest unit of measurement is still not defined!

LOST

2006-10-15T03:04:00.000-07:00

The gaze went through my life,
slitting my phantom and my substance,
trying to find myself,
i found thee.
A thought of you make me astray,
i am LOST.
The mirror makes me happy and the life makes me dull.
i am tired looking at the reflection and lost thinking of you.
Help me find me,
Be my side.